Moments & Positions

"As happens sometimes, a moment settled and hovered and remained for much more than a moment. And sound stopped and movement stopped for much, much more than a moment. And then, the moment was gone..."

Another quote stolen from One Tree Hill...maybe not as sophisticated as Shakespeare, but pretty good regardless. :)

Have you ever stopped to remember something, closed your eyes, and you can literally feel it? I think those are very rare moments that stay with us... where time almost seems to slow down. If I stop and remember a "really good day", I can't help but smile, and I can almost feel the sunshine on my face. If I think back to a moment of sadness, I can feel the way the earth seemed to stop moving. There are moments that stay with us -- life-changing moments -- sometimes whether we want to remember or not.
But I think every single day is made up of moments that are potentially amazing. I think most of the time we just overlook them. We go through our days so fast, sometimes wishing for the weekend or something else we're looking forward to, and we ignore the magic that surrounds us every single day.
Yesterday, I went out for a run. I was concentrating on breathing, not collapsing, and how much further I had to go, when suddenly I noticed the most beautful flowers on a tree in the neighborhood. It was a huge tree with these big, white delicate flowers. And I stopped, stole one (of course), and looked around. And as cheesy as it sounds, I thought to myself that there's so much beauty in the world if we just look around; If we step outside of ourselves and the stress constantly circulating in our heads. The weather was perfect, the air smelled of springtime and as simple as it sounds, I felt lucky; to be able to be outside and to be able to run, to be able to enjoy spring; Lucky to be running with someone who I know cares about me. Lucky to have more good memories in my head than bad. Life is short; things can change so quickly to the point where these simple things are what you might wish for most. So I promised myself to try to slow down and appreciate all the good things that are around me every day.

I also think if we slow down and really feel a moment, we can find a lot of truth in that particular moment. This might sound strange, but I think positions between people really say a lot about their relationship. I guess a big one for me is, when you sleep with someone, where do you wake up? Is your head still on his chest? Are you holding hands? Legs touching? Or are you rolled over on the opposite side of the bed? When I went running yesterday with my friend (aka ex boyfriend), we started out running side by side, but no matter how hard we tried to stay in sync, one of us always ended up in front of the other... now maybe it's because the side walk is too narrow but somehow I think it's more than that. Do you break your 'hand-holding' because an obstacle like a mailbox or pole is between you, or do you both move together around it? Maybe I'm reading too much into these things, but for some reason I think they speak volumes.

And then there are certain people that seem to fit so well. They are the people who seem to have their own gravitational pull on your body. You know you'll wake up either touching them in some way or at least facing them. You don't miss a step when you're walking together; you move with eachother. And hopefully, if you're lucky, that's what you'll do in life. Move together around the obstacles, run at the same pace, and dream together. One can only hope. :)